My mind keeps racing and won’t stop. The thoughts keep coming back and won’t leave. I fight for freedom from my own mind to escape the memories that won’t fade. Just when I feel everything is cool my drama starts to resurface, and with all that drama recycling itself, it’s hard not to let it blind you.
I woke up, cursed the day, and wished for this pain in my chest to go away. So I walked. I did not speak, I did not care. I kept in one direction and there was no change to what was already there. Time passed around me like a whirlpool that wouldn’t stop until every last drop was sucked into its void. Then I stopped.
The music was uplifting; it was distracting and mesmerizing. Is this what can set me free? Will this help settle my thoughts, make the mind unite with the body?
I let my body play with the melodic sounds in the air. Each beat helped me find a rhythm in my movements. I found myself dancing in the streets of down town Austin, with no care in the world. My mind searched for a new, move something I could conjure up on the spot that went with the music. Every fiber of my brain exploded with ideas and translated them into physical forms with my every movement. The sidewalk was my dance floor as well as my dinner table, I feasted on a buffet of beats and I was extremely hungry for more! People gathered and cheered; I saw smiles which triggered me to smile as well. I didn’t stop for the cheers, no pause when credit was given for an amazing move, there was no time to bow and accept the applause because the music was still going and my mind and body flowed like the rapids in a raging river. Nothing but pure style emanated off of me as I ventured on into the vast wilderness of this dance. The music came to a stop; I stood there breathless; sweat trickled down off my face and onto the dry hard pavement. I couldn’t hear anything except my heavy panting. It felt like a marathon of dancing; my body felt tight and warm and I was fiending for more. I looked up and noticed a larger crowd had gathered I got a few pats on my back they too wanted more.
There is much to fear in this new age world of chaos, deceit, and infidelity. But I realized my mind no longer was in havoc mode. It was calm and collected, and I noticed this town has that cure. It has the distractions that help us keep moving forward and away from what causes these unwanted aches and pains in the mind and in the heart. I’m sure we all have our insatiable demons that will not stop pestering us from the inside, so what is it that helps you liberate your afflictions?
…well put … to ease ones afflictions is always hard
Some times you have to find other things to distract your mind and help you cope with the issues you are going through. Im glad that you have found something positive to help you get through things. Most people would go on a drinking spree to try and fill that void or to forget about the situation at hand. I have found that writting poetry or even making a song seems to help me to express those things that I wanted to say but never had the chance to. I also wrote a letter to the person that broke my heart and really poured my feelings in to the letter. I never gave it to them because after i cried my eyes out and let it all out on paper I realized that the person who caused me the pain was never worth my tears to began with. Keep dancing and doing what you do…..and as always keep your head up…
This is truely poetic I love how this is structured in being personal but at the same time hits me close to home. I understand very much of where he’s coming from mainly because I’m a musician. I fucking love music its always been a passion of mine since I was a kid. Hearing my older brother blast on some Sevendust, Soulfly, Deftones, with some Pantera in it. I was literally surrounded by music everywhere I went. My mother always listening to her Beatles records, and my other brother will be listening to Tool or Opeth. So what I’m trying to say is no matter how difficult life
gets there is always something out there to ease the
pain. Whether its dancing, listening or playing music,
writing poems and songs, painting and drawing,
anything and everything in this world can be our cure.
This world is and always will be our home through the worse and beautiful times we may go through. This article does a great job in explaining this in a real life experience. PLEASSSSSEEEE WRITE MORE!!!! I enjoy reading your articles.
I can relate to your thoughts and how the mind works mysteriously in many ways. The way you express yourself is amazing and I couldn’t have put it any better. Sometimes we stop to think of how our minds are so powerful that it really takes over everything…. The key to it is DISTRACTION…. keep occupied and positive minded… I have always believed that GOD is my savior and he is the one that will help me control and cope with my mind….
Life is your own preception and can be changed by the power of YOU. Keep positive and don’t entertain the bad thoughts or people in your life. Life is good and everyday can be good if you choose to wake up and say thoes words.
Awsome words from everyone..I’m happy u guys enjoyed this little article..always appreciate to kno what is in other peoples minds..u guys are amazing 😀
It’s amazing how well you use your words to describe how you might feel, it is through those words that will help you feel better in times of sadness. Remember we can change the way we feel by making somebody else happy. Keep on writing, hope you do it soon. I see that God is with you by the way you express yourself.
Another amazing article! i am so glad u have this outlet, i never see you so happy and silly as when you are talking about dancing, even if its just at practice. what better way to shut ur mind up then to do something that not only brings joy to you, but to others and in the end leaves u breathless. Again great article and keep writing love u queso!
Well done, I enjoyed it bro, you need an outlet from the crazy world or you wind up crazy in this world
Well put little brother. I’m real proud of you and how you cope with your pains and able to write about it. It’s real good therapy for you and for the people who read it. When we go though life’s burdens, we feel like it only happens to us. But by reading your articles, others can see they are not alone or feel weird for feeling what they are feeling. Love you and take care, your niece and nephews miss and love you.